God had a reason for everything
I am 16 years of age and have gone through trials in my life that many wouldn't believe. As a normal American family these days (I hate that it is this way) my parents divorce when my brother was two and I was four years old, although this really didn't effect us much. My mother remarried as did my father and both divorced again. Though these things also didn't really effect us either.
When I was in sixth grade we had moved out on our own (mom, brother, and I) and things began to go down hill from there. My mom began to drink and smoke. When I went into the seventh grade she met a man that she would be with for the next few years, he was also an alcoholic.
Things in my life began to spiral out of control, I held a smile on the outside while I begged for help on the inside, God my only friend. By eight grade around Christmas time I had come to decide it wasn't worth living, I actually didn't realize that I had (I know that sounds weird but I was crying so hard one day and I began to write and in that letter I had written my suicide not). Then I remember that I didn't need anyone, but God and he was all I had.
Freshman year I saved at least who lives because of what I had gone through the previous year. I knew why I had gone through those things.
Things in my life were still spiraling but I was now in control. My mom had finally got rid of that man this year, but more problems came along after that. Mom went from job to job, many of them that were to much and then she would come home and fight. I was her release, I heard things that a child should never hear but I took them and I stayed strong.
This past year was probably the worst, actually the previous few months. The drinking got worse and my mom also had to have pills just to go to sleep and for other problems. She then lost her job and thats when it happened. She wanted to kill herself.
That night will forever been in me I had to call the police and being just a teenager they didn't believe me, she was drunk and took pills. I am not going to tell the things I was because it is just to hard but that night I was afraid for her life and mine, she tried to fight me and I had to fight her to get the pills out of her hand... only to fail.
Although these aren't all I have been through I am sure you get what I am saying. And even though these things are hard during the summer I realized that there is a reason I am going through all of this. I am suppose to help those who are going through the things I went through because I know that God gave me the knowledge to do it. I have already began helping one girl and I know there are many more. I know that I am blessed and I wouldn't change anything that I have been through, it has made me strong and who I am .
God had a reason for everything, I was once told that he didn't and these were just things that happened. To say the least I have had God tell me in his own way that that isn't true.
I know God on such a great level and I know that no matter what I have him, even when I only see one foot print in the sand. -- anonymous